It is very irritating and frustrating to keep receiving disturbing Youtube videos and Facebook pushing. Who and how these messages being controlled and disseminated? I have read enough.
I know that there are third parties professionals monitoring the whole process. You have been sending me different types of opinions, videos or even threats for more than a year. Who are they? Psychologists, psychiatrists, religious leaders, opposite or foreign politicians, love therapeutists, scientists or even scholars? Are they Chinese or foreigners? Do I need to seek all of their approval for my marriage decision? If I have the wisdom to provide input for current worldwide issues, are you questioning my ability and intelligence to make the right choice for my life partner? What the heck is going on? Who do they think they are? Do they have the right to control GOD's decision?
I know who I am. I just dislike to declare or name myself as GOD. I prefer you to treat me as a spiritual woman. I don't need peoples to worship me. I would like to be the role model whom everyone can emulate. I want to collaborate with all good peoples in the world and make the changes together.
The first component of a relationship is trust. Firstly, that person must be a sincere and kind person with integrity. With what I have found out about the evil and satanic reality and truth of the world, I definitely don't trust a foreigner in a foreign country, that person must be Chinese in China. I feel very insecure to live my life without personal protection. I feel very uncomfortable, insecure, and stressed to resume my friendship with my old friends as in the past because they know something or even everything about me. I hate the feeling of being see-through. On the other hand, I need to have a divorce from my current husband because he never cares or loves me. He only loves himself. I have been thinking about divorce for a long time. It just that I am scared of his reactions.
In addition, I really want to marry someone who can make the world better. The world is being exploited by a small group of criminals that numerous peoples are living hopelessly. I met him unexpectedly on August 2019. We started communication via whatsapp and Facebook. His team interviewed all my friends, colleagues and relatives to understand my history and identified my extraordinary and unexplainable experiences in life. He told me that he was in trouble and needed my support. He also told me that his marriage relationship was over for long time. "HE" wrote me few letters and "HE" has proposed to me in 2019 and I accepted it. I believe that it is our fate to be together to make the world better. Many pieces of evidence in the Bible and Tui Bei Tu(推背圖) have stated the revelation about us. In fact, I trust no one except "HIM" in the CCP if I don't mistake who "HE' is.
Ten commandments:
I am the LORD thy God
No other gods before me
No graven images or likenesses
Not take the LORD's name in vain
Remember the sabbath day
Honor thy father and thy mother
Thou shalt not kill
Thou shalt not commit adultery
Thou shalt not steal
Thou shalt not bear false witness
Thou shalt not covet
Is there any rule in the Ten commandments about not allowed to divorce and remarry again? I don't believe in all bullshit from the Vatican or Catholic church. They are just a group of criminals in a secret cult.
Regarding Buddhism, Shakyamuni was a prince before his awakening. He was born in a rich royal family in India with wives and kids. His father provided him with abundant resources and enjoyments so as to stop him from proceeding religious path. One day he went out to the cities and found out about the reality of life and shocked him. He knew nothing about suffering and made him enter into the religious awakening. In my opinion, Buddhism teaching is not the absolute truth of life. The teachings were developed from Shakyamuni's own life experience in ancient India. In fact, I disagree with his view of suffering or "dukkha", "苦". I agree with some of the Buddhism teachings like self-force or self-improvement. I don't believe GOD controls my life, everyone in the world has to fight hard for himself.
Life can be positive and meaningful like confucian teaching. Buddhism is too passive and negative that it doesn't fit quite well in the current real world. Everyone needs to have goals and dreams to fight for, his or her life goals motivate one person to discover the meaning of life. Peoples can certainly seek happiness through the improvements and achievements they have made in life. Of course, it is not as psychopathic and sickening as the top 1% of rich people. Besides, most of the Buddhism rules and principles were established by humans in subsequent periods (not by Shakyamuni). They just made up the rigid rules and principles to justify and reinforce the holiness of Buddhism. Some of them are quite ridiculous, irrational, and superstitious. For example, I don't believe that it is sinful to kill animals and fishes for food, we just can't torture them. This is basically the nature of the world and we are all living in the ecology system.
In addition, I definitely don't believe divorce is a sin that will introduce bad karma as well. Wasting our life with wrong peoples to do the wrong things is a sin. In fact, some of the rigid social and religious rules make people suffer even more. A family has to be bonded with true love, it is absolutely painful and torturous not only to the parents, especially to children as well to live in a broken family without love. This is from my own life experience, I always questioned why my parents did not get a divorce, why they had to give birth to me. My personal own life experiences certainly derive my thinking and belief. As I mentioned before, I am not a faithful Buddhist.
I can write a long essay about my belief in life in the future but certainly not now.
If I can't be with the "HIM" in China. I need to start a new life in a new place where nobody knows me. Am I making myself clear enough? Now, this is back to "HIS" choice and decision. He makes the last call. I believe that he has made a clear choice over me. Unfortunately some peoples couldn't accept the truth.
Please stop this nonsense immediately. I have enough.